HEARTACHE, HEARTPAIN, HEARTBREAK……the more I think, the more painful I am. But I just couldn’t stop myself from thinking about it. It’s all seems to be just like a puzzle. It’s a combination of all the incident, stories, facts, gossips, everything. But I don’t know if my analysis is a fact or fiction. I can’t bare it anymore, the more I think the more negative thoughts appearing in my mind. I did try to force myself not to think about it, it did work, for just a while, after that it came back again.
I just hate the feeling that I’m feeling now. No one in this world will go through what I’m facing now. I just hate it. Why must it happen to me? Why? I just feel like I’m wearing a mask whenever I’m with him. Am I really happy when I see him or am I just pretend to be happy just not to make him worry? I really wanted to drop everything and move on with my life but is just HARD!!! Is it the only way to leave everything is by getting him out of my life? I don’t want to do that if that’s the only way, cause I don’t want to loose a friend as well.
Tell me what should I do? I couldn’t talk to anyone cause no one will understand the situation and the story behind. It’s complicated and its confidential. So I just can keep it to myself, crying deep in my heart where no one can hear my cries.
~~ I just hate falling in LOVE, it SUX ~~
