Christine@Sweet-Lil-Devilish

UNTITLED…the reason why I put untitled as my title for this entry is because I don’t know how should I describe my mood now. Because on one side, I’m still burning myself to the max with disappointments and lies AGAIN and on the other side I just felt so cheated and confused. I just don’t know how am I gonna take this. I guess I really need time to cool down myself for a while and think about it over again.

Are " PROMISES REALLY MEANT TO BE BROKEN " ? I came to your place on thinking giving you surprise and cares as a sister and I left your place with tears, anger and disappointment in return. I’m so speechless. I left your place cause I couldn’t stand the anger and disappointment that is right in between my breathing cause I know that I would burst into tears in front of you at anytime and I manage to hold my tears and release it once I step out from your place and all the way while I was walking to my car. And then again when I reach Jamie’s place, tears filled my eyes again while I was trying myself so hard to tell him what had happen.

But then again, ‘ SORRY ‘ is not what I wanted to hear this time because you know it at the very beginning. You should have know how to arrange it properly. If you would have told me about your plans earlier I wouldn’t have been so disappointed and I would accept it. Because at least I won’t be as disappointed as now because it is all well planned. And while I had everything well planned then only you tell me right in front of my face.

But anyway, I just needed sometime to cool down myself. Is just that I really couldn’t forgive you for this time. But don’t worry, I’m not a person who uses my anger to deal with situation. I will still remain this friendship at the same level.

I don’t know how to start this blog entry because at the beginning of this incident I know that I’m wrong at the first place but I’d already made my apologies to you but it seems that you did not want to accept my apologies cause you seems like ignoring my messages. What else can I do to mend this friendship? I’ve shown my effort in trying to mend it but it seemed that you don’t want to mend this friendship. I don’t know if I did not show much effort enough or not but at least please tell me do you really want this to end just like this? Because I know I don’t want our friendship to end just like this. Is a 4 years of friendship, 4 years, is not short nor long for this period and I don’t want it end just because of that small incident. To me is a small incident but I don’t know to you is how? That is why I want to know and talk to you. If you really want to end it just like this, I’ve got nothing much more to say. I just want you to flash back in this 4 years things that you’ve done for me and things that I’ve done for you. But I can tell you that I’d never neglected you as part of the footsteps in my diary. I really hope that you’ll think twice before you made this decision. Lastly just want you to know that no matter how your decisions are, I’ll still always be there for you as your friend because it hurts me from a friendship turning into a sorrow and hatred and I don’t want that to be carried through my whole life.

Friends to me is a priceless yet is a very valuable thing to me because it is a precious that can never buy with money. Because they had actually made my life into a different person and I’m sure vice versa as well.

My purpose of this entry is to tell one of my most precious yet priceless friendship (if you happen to read this), I just want to tell you that no matter how hard everything goes, or how bad the situation is I’ll always be there for you. Is hurt for me to see you like this but I couldn’t show how hurt I am cause I don’t want you to be pull back down as I know you’ll always need someone to back you up from below and I promise will always support you in any way, cry with you when you wanted to cry, give you a hug when you needed a hug the most. Although I know I’m not really a good adviser but I just want you to know even if the whole world is falling down and everyone is turning their backs towards you I promise I will never leave you when you needed someone the most. And I make this promise to you.

Once a friend, forever a friend and there’ll always be a bond between this 2 person that created a thing called friendship which include trust, promise, laughter, joy, sadness, sharing and most of all memories that could never be erase.

Remember "Once a friend, forever a friend"…..

This blog entry is also dedicated to all my friends as well….

Holiday just started for 12 days. And I still haven’t get a job yet. I’m already starting to get rot. Urgh…what should I do ler ??? Felt so useless suddenly, everyday staying at home checking emails, classified, waiting for news when will I get a job. Aih….when ler ??? Or should I go get a part time job instead ??? Anyone care to give some opinion ???

It has been a while since my last blog. I don’t know how to describe my feelings in this past 5 months. Time really flies, so fast 2 semester at KBU had past and my holiday just started and after my holiday ends, I will be stepping into my year 3.

Being in KBU in this 8 months has actually made my life more colorful, there’ll always be joy and laughter, the people(classmates) that I know there has actually leave a little footsteps in my life and I’ll know this is just part of the beginning. One of the culture in the class is, everyone’s birthday will be celebrated either later or earlier or on that day. Birthday’s will never be neglected no matter how busy we are with each other assignments, it is part of our culture. We are like a one whole family, no matter how hard or tired we are, in the end when one of our projects ends, we’ll be planning ahead for all of us to relax for a while together with the whole group.

SHOUTOUT !!! Well, here’s a lil shoutout to all my classmates who are reading this, remember to make use of your holidays to prepare for our Year 3. We still have one more year to go and this year can be easy or tough is all up to you to decide ok ??? Remember what Anis said that day on the last lecture ya….take care and see you guys soon.